Whoa! Another new year! Art washed away the dust of 2013 from my short term memory. Yay! It was good but I'm over it now and I'm ready to make some headway using up some of these art supplies that I've collected over the last 5+ years or so.
my favorite envelope interior
No, I don't do resolutions. I don't want to set goals that I know I will abandon. However I am all about making a few (very few) life resolutions about things I will have to do from here on out . . . or until I change my mind. TRUTH!
I want the freedom to be in tune with myself . . . I want to be flexible and don't want to follow what authority says I should be doing, except for the people I'm interested in and really care about . . . otherwise, I'm not listening anymore. I'm not chasing many of the things I used to care about because I don't care what's in style any more and if I have to, I will do my own thing by myself . . . I can keep myself busy for hours and hours and hours and days and weeks . . . and I'm not going to fall into the trap of making up my own "shoulds" that later will feel like drudgery. What's the point of that anyway?
Have you ever?
I hope I don't sound too arrogant . . . I'm 55 years old and will soon be 56 and if I can't follow the song and script in my own head, why bother getting up in the morning. Let's have some fun! Let's do some dreaming! Then let's follow through with some handmade magic!
I can say this because, I've raised my kids, have a sweet and successful (by my high standards) marriage and I think I've paid my dues and my taxes even when I didn't like it. I've cut out doing things I'm not really interested in, yes, like watching TV and some socializing in person. I'm focusing and changing and developing and while it's rather unsettling at times, I have the strength inside my heart to weather the changes with an honest, cheerful energy that I've arrived at for myself because I'm not looking for that happiness to come from somewhere outside of me.
a new pattern generated by one of my photos of patterned fabric altered in the "Percolator" app for iPhone
I have a mission and I'm going to stick by it. That mission is that I'm the one who is creating and living my life on my terms and on my timetable and in my own intense and quirky way. I love living this way! It has taken me many years to tweak my beliefs, philosophy of life and personal circumstances to arrive at my current state of mind, and I really don't expect anyone to agree with me. It is my personal choice given what I spent my time doing over the last 30 years. I do hope that you can find yours and be as happy with it as I am. Be your own unique snowflake!
There's beauty in every breath we take so take a good strong whiff!
No, I don't do resolutions because what's implied in setting them is that there's something wrong with how I lived my life now and I just don't believe that anymore. I made every choice carefully and I often knew what I was getting myself in for even when I made choices that I later regretted or felt sad over. That's how we learn people.
section of a broken linoleum floor
"Learn what?" you may ask.
Well, learned that I really have no say about most other people's ideas and the way they live. I learned this so well with my own kids. I really tried to be the coolest, kindest, conscious parent, who talked and guided and disciplined gently. A parent who listened and encouraged my children's aspirations and here I am at the end of the heavy lifting and they've become their own people and now I get to watch. It's not a particularly comfortable place and by no means can I sum it up in a word like "proud", . . . yet. I hope I was adequate for the task. I think most parents think that and I think most have times when they're not sure. Let's just leave it at that for now.
No, I don't do resolutions because if I think I've done something that didn't work or I thought was wrong or "a mistake" I try to fix it as soon as I can, make things right and "to be a better person" is so nebulous and means a different thing to each one.
Here's what I already do for my own peace of mind:
-- I exercise 1 to 1-1/2 hours about 3 or 4 times a week and it keeps me happy, not moody or edgy, flexible and feeling pretty (um, beautiful?) and I will continue to do this for as long as I can.
-- I'm moving a little more slowly and consciously so I don't have any nasty falling accidents and break something. And I'm driving more carefully because I have a lot more I want to do in my life and I need all my limbs and senses intact.
-- I'm eating fewer processed foods and less bread and starchy foods. They don't make me feel good. I still treat myself once in a while and I feel like I deserve it.
-- I'm really trying to nip in the bud my tendency to criticize the way I look and also criticize my negative thoughts. It's just the way it is and if I can let go of the fleeting thought, I am a happier person. If I can do this with regard to other people, I can do it for myself and if I can do it for myself, I can do it with others.
I think she has some dark thoughts inside that glistening exterior.
-- I am constantly trying to look past my initial reactions to people, situations and even my own opinions so that I can have an open mind and heart and be ready for all the good things that life has to offer. I do this instead of walking around defending myself and steeling myself for the possible bad things that can happen as well. Waiting for bad things to happen is no way to be free and it's hard, hard, hard.
Flaws don't really mean that something is ugly . . . can you see that?
So, I'm not the smartest or the fastest or the most creative or the richest person. There's always room for improvement but to make a resolution seems to me to pit myself against a rule and I hate rules. I would rather be a subversive and buck the status quo and the conventional wisdom and blah, blah, blah . . . I just gotta be me!
"It takes courage to become who you really are." -- e. e. cummings
NOW, if you want some other points of view . . . and you probably do after what I just handed you, please visit some of my fellow bloggers who are writing about this topic too.
Really, I'm deep but not that deep.
And see if you can think up some of your own ideas that you can stand behind. It's always worth looking inside to figure these things out.
Rock the 2014!!!
Andes Cruz: http://www.andescruz.wordpress.com
Kathleen Krucoff: http://kathleenkrucoff.wordpress.com
Shelagh Blatz: http://designsbyshelagh.com/blog
diana bell www.bellsprings.blogspot.com